just stop!

"Time passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls. But pass it does. Even for me."

It approaches so rapidly, this time of year.
No matter how hard my mind and consciousness attempts to derail my feeling, my subconscious proves to be much more powerful. Every year, it never fails me. No matter how busy and self-absorbed I try to keep myself, my heart always triumphs. I only wish I could control the period of time in which it does so.
It all hits home when these eyes glance at a picture of your face and I realize I don't recognize you anymore.
My mind has seemed to erase you...but my heart will never let go or forget.
The eternal struggle I will always face. It is severely unnerving.

"Happy Valentines Day", is all I can think.