I miss my little princess Lily.

I must go home to visit her soon!

New Year?

I found this little piece of wonder buried deep down in my purse of treasures.

Who knows how long it has been there...

So, I am hoping that, due to the fact that I found it today, it is some sort of omen for my New Year.

Fingers crossed!

next?

Need to end anything before it actually begins?

Just ask me.

I am a plethora of knowledge on the subject, ready to hand out little tidbits!

post-exam celebration.

these people are vampires.

This evening I enjoy my favorite bottle of Pinot Grigio while viewing Oliver Stone's vision, The Doors.

I don't think I could ever get tired of this film.

I'm fairly certain that my soul belongs back in that era.

Oh, Jim Morrison, what a hot mess you were.

Not too much different from the person this movie will always remind me of. No matter how many years pass, those memories and feelings of complete manipulative toxicity always surface.

Sometimes I wonder how he is doing, totally locked away from society...

"Do you hurt? What hurts you the most?"

gobble.

Regardless of how cliche it is to verbalize what you're thankful for on one day of the year, the vast selflessness experienced by a large part of our population is mildly refreshing.

My list can go on and on containing the things I am incredibly lucky to have in my life.

But, these two guys pretty much take the cake...no, they hands down take the cake. I would surely be lost without them.

I am very honored and lucky to play the roles of sister and daughter to these remarkable gentlemen.

the week's playlist.

with the lights turned on.

I don't know what it is about tonight/this morning that is extra creepy, but I can feel it.

Maybe it is the combination of the army of spiders on my porch and the scratching of single leaves while they blow along the pavement.

Whatever it is, I have my Shelter (which is hands down my most favorite tune at the moment.)

Album: "Say Anything" (2009)

1. Fed To Death

2. Hate Everyone

3. Do Better

4. Less Cute

5. Eloise

6. Mara And Me

7. Crush'd

8. She Wont Follow You

9. Cemetery

10. Property

11. Death For My Birthday

12. Young Dumb And Stung

13. Ahhh...Men

mountain shacks and ghost towns.

bleach burns...

...and I'm blonde.

The new Barbie colored study bun.

Sometimes a girl just needs a bit of a change.

This should hold me over in that change department for the time being.

snow day part deux.

Let the wild rumpus start!

Campus is closed today, again. No complaints here but, I will say, I think they're getting soft; I don't think I have ever had two snow days in a row during my collegiate career thus far.

What to do with my day? I think I may do something I haven't done in a very long while--enjoy an adult beverage or two.

Happy Winter!

snow day.

Brrr baby, it's cold outside.

2AM, wide awake, yet not doing anything productive with this alert brain of mine.

Tis the season; the snow seems to have some odd affect on this soul along with the routinely annual return of people from the past.

Let's see where it takes me: to be continued...

ink=love.

Hooray hooray I'm your silver lining and now I'm [permanent]!

My baby brother is the best brother a girl could ask for. I may or may not have teared up a bit when he showed me.

I'm a very honored big sister today!

welcome to my nook.

My study book nook.

I'm a tired bear...and it's only Tuesday.

on rotation.

These three albums are musical candy to my ears and the light of my life at the moment.

[Regarding Wild Things; the only good parts of the film were the cinematography and the music. So, the feelings I thought would surface while seeing the movie actually come on just as strong, if not more so, while listening to the soundtrack and the score. I never need to see the movie again now that I possess the music that is the basis for the childhood feelings of bliss and spontaneity.]

Where The Wild Things Are (Motion Picture Score)

Composed by Carter Burwell

1. Lost Fur

2. Sailing

3. Follow The Fires

4. Max Joins

5. When You Have A Problem

6. Taming

7. This Is Your World

8. Dirt Clod Fight

9. I'm Done

10. Carol's Dark Night

11. Lost Fur Reprise

12. We Love You So

Where The Wild Things Are (Motion Picture Soundtrack)

Original songs by Karen O and the Kids

1. Igloo
2. All Is Love
3. Capsize
4. Worried Shoes
5. Rumpus
6. Rumpus Reprise
7. Hideaway
8. Cliffs
9. Animal
10. Lost Fur
11. Heads Up
12. Building All Is Love
13. Food Is Still Hot
14. Sailing Home

The line-up on this is wonderful, no judging!

New Moon (Motion Picture Soundtrack)

1. Death Cab For Cutie – Meet Me On The Equinox
2. Band Of Skulls – Friends
3. Thom Yorke- Hering Damage
4. Lykke Li – Possibility
5. The Killers - A White Demon Love Song
6. Anya Marina – Satellite Heart
7. Muse - I Belong To You (New Moon)
8. Bon Iver and St. Vincent – Rosyln
9. Black Rebel Motorcycle Club - Done All Wrong
10. Hurricane Bells – Monsters
11. Sea Wolf – The Violet Hour
12. Ok Go- Shooting The Moon
13. Grizzly Bear - Slow Life
14. Editors – No Sound But The Wind
15. Alexandre Desplat – New Moon (The Meadow)

my weapon of choice.

I will highlighter your face off.

empty yet still beautiful.

gone for a drive.

Sometimes I simply wonder, "Um, what just happened?"

"Please take a long hard look through your text book
'Cause I'm history
When I strap my helmet on I'll be long gone
'Cause I've been dying to leave
Yeah, I'll ride the range and hide all my loose change
In my bedroom
'Cause riding a dirtbike down a turnpike
Always takes it's toll on me

I've had just about enough
Of quote, "diamonds in the rough"
Because my backbone is paper thin
Get me out of this cavern
Or I'll cave in

If the bombs go off
The sun will still be shining
Because we've heard it said that every mushroom cloud
Has a silver lining
(Though I'm always undermining too deep to know)
Swallow a drop of gravel and blacktop
'Cause the road tastes like wintergreen
The wind and the rain smell of oil and octane
Mixed with stale gasoline
I'll soak up the sound trying to sleep on the wet ground
I'll get ten minutes give-or-take
'Cause I just don't foresee myself getting drowsy
When cold integrity keeps me wide awake

Get me out of this cavern
Or I'll cave in

I'll keep my helmet on just in case my head caves in
'Cause if my thoughts collapse or my framework snaps
It'll make a mess like you wouldn't believe
Tie my handlebars to the stars so I stay on track
And if my intentions stray I'll wrench them away
Then I'll take my leave and I won't even look back

I won't even look back"

--Owl City

Cave In

today in my brain:

I miss the ocean.

I need the dose of motivation that the beauty and the vastness of the sea gives me.

Quite an interesting read so far, one that I agree and disagree with all at the same time.

Taking it for what it is; a book of enlightening information.

I need to get Photoshop or something similar.

I want to be able to put a label on the photographs that I take myself and post on here.

Or, is there anyway to do that using iphoto?

Hm, if only I wasn't so technologically disabled.

my throat burns of coffee and cigarette smoke.

I watched the sun set, the darkness of the night pass me by, and the light of the morning rise.

My coffee companions were the chirping birdies.

"Tomorrow to fresh Woods, and Pastures new." --John Milton

Honestly, I must admit that I have not been devoting as much time as I should be to my english course that covers Milton in his entirety (for the most part.)

I am not an English major, nor could ever dream to understand this facet of education enough to ever compare myself to English majors.

I took this course as an upper division elective and signed up as a way to step out of my normal learning comfort zone. What I didn't realize was not only was I stepping out of this comfort zone, I was diving blindly out of it head first.

An exceptional grade is not within my reach for this course, but I hope to walk away with some knowledge that I would have never attained otherwise. The silver lining, I must always try to see that silver lining!

Tomorrow marks the date of our midterm and I am so beyond lost and overwhelmed.

I will be drowning in his works of literature and coffee all night long.

Hopefully, the analytical side of my personality will make an appearance tonight and tomorrow morning.

Fingers crossed on this one.

"Name an album I must have. I am bored with all of mine right now. I need a fresh breath of something new."

"Hmm, Leonard Cohen, Greatest Hits."

So far so good.

The boy with impeccable recommendations has yet to let me down.

"Like a bird on the wire

Like a drunk in a midnight choir

I have tried in my way to be free."

chai morning.

Drowning in Milton, sipping on caffeine, listening to the 'chai morning' playlist. It is chilly out there today and I couldn't be more thrilled about it.

Familia - Mirah (Guy Sigsworth remix)

Gatekeeper - Feist

Shadows - Au Revoir Simone

Let Go - Frou Frou

I Feel It All - Feist

Isabelle - Gregory And The Hawk

Don't Die In Me - Mirah

homesick.

I am missing my main dudes like crazy. Times like these make me wonder if I could handle living thousands of miles away from them.

I do get a Papa visit tomorrow, which will hold my sanity together for the long week ahead.

Sandwiched between two fluffy down-feather comforters is where I lay my head this autumn eve.

Goodnight world.

H1N1

It's a negative...thank goodness.

I was fading fast there for a while trapped in my apartment like a contagious dying hermit.

I made it to Littleton to my surrogate family where I am receiving amazing maternal nurturing.

Hot tea and warm neck wraps are where it's at.

4 pages long; my pen met with the paper of my personal journal this evening. 

I think more of this will be happening.

Post Script. 

The ONLY (and I'm even willing to try to look passed it) downfall of my most favorite season; the actual changing of the season. Meaning, my bad knee feels like it's going to fall off. 

Truth. 

It has finally arrived in the mail! I have heard wonderful things about this memoir, and I am overly enthused to dive into it. 

It has become a challenge to balance the amount of reading I want to achieve in my leisurely free time in conjunction with the amount of reading that is mandatory for me due to classes. I am fairly determined to give it a go. 

oh, how I adore you.

This morning I woke up to the confirmation that it is in fact that time of year for my most favorite season. The clouds were in the sky, concrete wet with fresh mist, the gloom surrounded me, and the crisp shock of that cold air informed me that Autumn had arrived. Scarves and boots and mittens OH MY! 

Fall, please stay a while. Winter, we are in no rush for you to come along!

Car dancing is just something that makes me entirely too happy and something I will continue to do, well...forever, as I long as I got the moves!

constellations of beauty.

Ursa Major.

"If nothing else, I am myself, it's all I have to give."